The Legend of the Medical Concubine

Chapter 147 Lin Ruoxue's Struggle and Rebirth

Lin Ruoxue sat quietly by the window in the study. The sunlight shone on her through the half-open window, but it could not warm her cold heart. In her hand was an old collection of poems, which she and Nangong Yi had read together. There were a few dried petals between the pages, which they had picked together in the garden. The sweetness of the past has now become the most painful thorn in her heart, and every touch makes her heart ache.

She remembered that the time she spent with Nangong Yi was always full of laughter. They had discussed poetry together in the study, and Nangong Yi always patiently explained the meaning of each line of poetry, while she listened with great interest.

"Ruoxue, look how beautiful this poem is." Nangong Yi once pointed at a poem, his eyes sparkling. His voice was gentle and mellow, as if it carried a kind of magic that made people involuntarily indulge in it.

Lin Ruoxue leaned over and looked at the line "Holding your hand, growing old together with you", her heart filled with longing for the future. "Brother Yi, can we really be like what this poem says?" Her eyes were full of expectation, and her voice was a little shy.

Nangong Yi looked at her gently, smiled and said, "Of course, we will always be together." His eyes were full of determination, as if he was making an eternal promise to her.

However, the reality is so cruel. Nangong Yi's wedding was like a sharp knife, cutting her dreams into pieces. She couldn't understand why the man who had walked hand in hand with her in the garden and made a lifelong commitment to her suddenly became so strange.

"Why?" Lin Ruoxue's heart was full of questions, and tears flashed in her eyes. "Brother Yi, why did you do this to me?" Her voice was trembling, full of pain and despair.

She tried to find the answer in her memories, but found that the more she recalled, the deeper the pain in her heart became. She began to doubt whether those beautiful past were just a dream, a dream she didn't want to wake up from.

Late at night, Lin Ruoxue was wandering alone in the study. Her eyes fell on the guqin, which was a token of love given to her by Nangong Yi. She remembered that Nangong Yi once said that her guqin sound was the most beautiful music he had ever heard.

"Ruoxue, your piano playing always touches my heartstrings." Nangong Yi's voice seemed to still echo in her ears.

Lin Ruoxue gently stroked the strings of the zither, but she no longer had the courage to play. She was afraid that the sound of the zither would bring back more memories, making her unable to bear this heavy emotion.

"Xiao Tao, what do you think I should do?" Lin Ruoxue asked the maid beside her. Her voice was full of helplessness and confusion.

Xiao Tao looked at her with pity and said, "Miss, don't think about Master Nangong anymore. He doesn't belong to you anymore. You have to live for yourself." Xiao Tao's eyes were full of concern. She hoped that the young lady could get out of this painful memory as soon as possible.

Lin Ruoxue sighed, "I want to let it go, but my heart hurts." Her eyes were full of pain and struggle. She didn't know how to let go of this relationship and start her life again.

In deep self-blame and confusion, Lin Ruoxue's heart experienced a struggle. She began to reflect whether she was not good enough to keep Nangong Yi's heart. She even began to doubt whether the love between them had never really existed.

"Perhaps, I have never really understood him." Lin Ruoxue said in a monologue late at night, with a hint of despair in her voice. Her heart was full of doubts and denials about herself, and she felt as if she had been abandoned by the whole world. Her love and her dreams seemed to have vanished at this moment.

She thought of her dream, which was full of hope and beauty. She wanted to be an excellent poet and use her words to describe the beauty and warmth of the world. However, now she is bound by the pain of love and cannot extricate herself.

"I can't go on like this." Lin Ruoxue said secretly in her heart. She decided to find her dream again and live for herself.

She began to study poetry diligently and use words to express her emotions. Her poems are full of love for life and hope for the future, which makes people feel strong and brave.

In this process, Lin Ruoxue gradually met some like-minded friends. They discussed poetry and shared life together. With their company, Lin Ruoxue's mood gradually became cheerful.

"It turns out that there are so many beautiful things in life." Lin Ruoxue said with emotion. She finally understood that love is not everything in life. She also has her own dreams and friends.

As time went by, Lin Ruoxue gradually walked out of the painful memories. Her heart was full of expectations and confidence for the future. She believed that as long as she worked hard, she would be able to realize her dream and live a happy life.