The Legend of the Medical Concubine

Chapter 146 Lin Ruoxue's Self-blame and Confusion

Lin Ruoxue's heart was filled with self-blame and confusion. Ever since she learned of Nangong Yi's marriage, she had fallen into deep self-doubt. She didn't understand why she couldn't keep Nangong Yi's heart, and why their love was so fragile. Sometimes she knew that the two of them were impossible, but there was always a glimmer of hope in her heart.

The first ray of sunlight in the morning shone through the gap in the curtains and onto Lin Ruoxue's face. She sat in front of the dressing table, and the person in the mirror looked pale and haggard. Her hand gently stroked the items on the table that were related to Nangong Yi - a painting they had drawn together, a poem he wrote for her, and a hairpin he gave her. Each item carried the beautiful memories they had in the past, but now it has become an indelible pain in her heart.

"Ruoxue, it's time to get up." Xiaotao called softly from outside the door.

Lin Ruoxue seemed to have not heard anything, and continued to sit there blankly. She was filled with self-blame, muttering to herself: "Did I do something wrong? Why did Yi leave me?"

Xiao Tao walked into the room and saw Lin Ruoxue's appearance. She said distressedly, "Miss, please stop torturing yourself like this. Master Nangong is gone, but you still have us."

Lin Ruoxue slowly raised her head, her eyes full of sadness: "Xiao Tao, do you think I am a failure? I can't even keep the person I love."

The afternoon sun was warm and bright, but Lin Ruoxue's mood was as cold as ice in winter. She wandered in the garden, and every step seemed so heavy. The flowers in the garden were still blooming, and the butterflies were still dancing, but she could no longer feel the vitality and energy.

"Ruoxue, don't be too sad." Liu Mei walked to her side and comforted her softly.

Lin Ruoxue stopped and looked at Liu Mei, with a trace of confusion in her eyes: "Mei'er, did I do something wrong? Is it because I'm not good enough that you left me?"

Liu Mei held her hand tightly and said firmly: "Ruoxue, this is not your fault. Love is not a one-person thing. You have tried your best. It is Nangong Yi's loss that he does not know how to cherish you."

Lin Ruoxue sighed softly: "But I still can't let him go."

As night fell, Lin Ruoxue sat alone in front of the window, looking at the stars in the night sky. Her heart was full of confusion. She didn't know where her future was and whether she could still find happiness.

"Yi, do you really not love me anymore?" Her tears rolled down again, with a hint of sob in her voice.

She was immersed in pain and couldn't extricate herself. At this time, Xiaotao walked into the room with a cup of hot tea.

"Miss, have some tea and stop thinking about Master Nangong." Xiao Tao persuaded.

Lin Ruoxue took the teacup but didn't drink it. She just stared blankly out the window.

After countless sleepless nights, Lin Ruoxue finally began to realize that she could no longer indulge in self-blame and confusion. She needed to bravely face her heart and look for her future.

"Ruoxue, you can't give up like this." Liu Mei encouraged Lin Ruoxue during a late-night conversation.

A trace of determination flashed in Lin Ruoxue's eyes: "Mei'er, you are right. I can't go on like this. I want to live for myself."

Liu Mei showed a relieved smile: "That's right, Ruoxue. You are an excellent woman, and you will definitely find your own happiness."